Hesitation! One step forward. One step back, only to find oneself in the same position as before. Confusion and hazy light. Money, effort, time and confrontation spent for an unknown risk. Health, poverty and adverse conditions fight the security of the womb.
The heart yearns for a positive experience and the mind puts a damper on the parade. Trust, anxiety and potential danger grip the intellect in a vice that doesn’t release its hold. One will look back and laugh at the dilemma—or will one?
Guide me in whatever decision I make, and the outcome will be favorable and ultimately lead to transformation. Is the catalyst necessary or can one be with nature without exterior trappings? Guide me—make it worthwhile. The path is leading to dirt roads that are worn with age and I’m used to pavement. Guide me—a mantra that stands alone and no solace comes forth, yet I feel a heaviness in my stomach. My motto has always been “Go for it!” Even if it’s not right, I’ll just make it so.
Please stay with me. The path gets lonelier and I need conformation. Ever feel like a baby? One baby step for mankind; yet I want leaps, jumps and hops ad infinitum. Show me, allow me to work your miracles. I’m trying—. maybe not so hard, but I’m willing to learn and give whatever I can at this given time. As I become a clearer channel, everything seems easier to understand. For now truth is still all cloudy; yet at times the sun does shine forth and a spurt of growth is apparent—even to me.